I’m Not Good Enough

April 7, 2011 at 3:41 pm , by Helen

The Deep Transformative Clearing (DTC) brought up one deep-seated, recurring issue: feeling not good enough. As a child, my family had inadvertently shown me that I wasn’t smart enough to succeed on my own. Even though this belief originated twenty years ago, this issue has played into every element of my life– it ran under everything, it was the common denominator to all other problems. The DTC helped me deal with the issue I hadn’t yet been able to fully understand or move through. It offered an alternative perspective: rather than trying to overcome the problem, I began to embrace the mental body split—my traumatized 8-year-old self. And by nurturing her, I began reintegrating part of myself.

 
Before the Clearing, I felt hopeless. I was depressed with the thought, How can I work on something that happened so long ago? I wondered, Is it always going to be this way? I felt devoid of energy, weak, stagnant, powerless. I knew a problem existed, but I felt that couldn’t do anything about it.

 

During the Clearing, when Helen was working with my emotional body, I felt the presence of the Divine presence she was calling upon. It was blissfully intense. I felt a surge of energy. I felt enlivened. Occasionally, an uncomfortable wave of energy was released, like I was un-stressing. But I quickly returned to a place of euphoric comfort.

 

When she asked me to go back and interact with the 8-year-old version of me, I felt as though I was simultaneously nurturing and being nurtured. It was deeply personal: I was self-loving. I saw this troubled part of myself as somewhat separate from me, therefore it was easier to reach out and understand her pain. With the newfound ability to empathize with myself, my habitual self-judgment was eliminated. And when I asked this part of myself to reintegrate, it was easy! I told her, I’m in charge now, you can trust me, I will take care of you. It was self-empowering and she believed me immediately. There was no trying—full reintegration occurred in less than a day.

 

Immediately following the Clearing, I felt a lot of sweetness. The nurturing part of me continued to express itself. I felt like I was in a mother taking care of a fragile girl.  My heart had opened. I felt that we had unlocked part of myself that I had never seen before. Intellectually I knew she was there, but the clearing brought to life a part of me that had gone forever unrecognized. I felt like I had added more to myself—like I was more of a complete person.

 

In the days and weeks after the Clearing, life has presented situations where I am forced to integrate this new part of myself (and the belief that I am good enough) into my every day life. I am being forced to step it up. For example, at work nobody validates me or tells me that I can be successful or even that I am progressing with my training. The non-integrated me believes that I will, “never know as much” as my supervisor. So I am being forced to become an independent source of self-esteem. And since the Clearing has given me a foundation and a method addressing an issue that has frustrated me for years, I now have greater clarity and empathy with myself.

 

I would definitely recommend a Clearing to a friend. Especially if they were having strong recurring pattern—self-judgment, etc—that their usual tools are not helping. I would recommend it to anyone who feels helpless, or blocked, or stagnant but doesn’t know how to move forward. Or someone that needs a little love, assistance, enlivening, or feels out of touch with himself or herself.

 

On a personal note, Helen offers an unparalleled level of comfort and support. You can feel comfortable and can say anything to her because you will never feel judged. And it’s a miracle because greater healing takes place when the whole being can relax and be open and exposed and because interacting with Helen serves as an example of how to be unconditionally non-judgmental with yourself.

Karen Testimonial

March 22, 2011 at 1:50 pm , by Helen

Hi Helen,

I just responded to an e-mail I received from Daniel, with whom I have just ended a ten year relationship – one in which he was making all kinds of excuses for his deceitful and dishonest behavior, etc.  I sat with it for a few days and many things went through my mind.  But each day things have gotten clearer and today I responded in what I feel was the most amazing, compassionate, clear and understanding way – surprised even myself to see what came out.

I could never have been in this place right now if it weren’t for the work you have done with me. The sun is shining and I can honestly say that my heart is singing, I feel such joy and peace.  Thank you so much – I’m looking forward to our work together.

Blessings,

Karen

Deep Transformative Clearing Removes Hopelessness

March 17, 2011 at 10:03 am , by Helen

Before the Deep Transformative Clear, I was experiencing depression and an inability to move forward in life. I was unhappy with my job and my home life, and felt trapped with nowhere to turn. I was taking prescription medication for depression and anxiety. My emotions rolled through unhappiness, anger, frustration, and irritability.

 

But during the Clearing, I felt a lot of energy moving throughout my body, and at times felt negative emotions being released. Towards the end of the session, I saw gold light in my head and felt very blissful.

 

And right after the session, I felt great–better than I had in a long time! I felt more hopeful and that I had some options in my life. In fact, several months later, I didn’t feel the need for the medication that I had been taking. I spoke to my doctor, and he gave me the okay to stop taking it. I actually felt clear and settled once the drugs had left my system! Since then, I am finding it easier to move forward on my life path. I now have a better living situation, and have a small side business doing what I love!

 

I would definitely recommend this clearing to a friend, especially if that person feels lost and hopeless, unable to move forward. Helen French Black is very personable, compassionate and a superb healer.

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